Wednesday, July 05, 2006
for the past two weeks

my legs are swollen like hell.. i have a neck and backpain constantly... difficulty in sleeping and breathing, loosing my appetite, my liver is in pain and a few more symptoms of HEART FAILURE. thought it was only a symptoms and that i am too young to face this... but i was wrong. because i just get the results from all the tests done earlier in PPUM... and so it be...

those are really the early synptoms of heart failure. help!!! i need a ... a..... a..... anything!!!!!


Posted at 05:53 pm by misznana
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Saturday, July 01, 2006
am back!!!

with a lot of stories, with a lot of plans and also with a new ME. i guess duk tinggal sorang and without family for someone like me is something bad.

i'll be back writing. and speaking about writing, this time.. not only a blog. it'll be bigger than that. than this. bigger than a blog, bigger than a journal. and it concists of all my experiences. my life. basically.. yeah, a life journal... a more complicated thing. hehe....:D

catch u guys later k...

miss u all like crazy la weh!!!! like crazy!!! 


Posted at 05:40 am by misznana
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Wednesday, May 10, 2006
think

shit happen...

people change...

but still, life must go on.

i've been through a lot lately. been thinking, been scanning, been planning. been.. been... been busy.

structuring, managing and everything. but for what? and about what? about life. about love. about being a good daughter and sister.

but still, i'm thinking about all my friends. all of them out there. Lin, Lenz, Sayapdewa, xdekeje, Sis Dona, Sis Wynn, Sis Susan, Sis Tika, my bro Rudy, just to name a few. but seriously, i miss everything that makes me happy. not that i'm not happy all this time when i wasn't with them or anything. is just that i do think that i need to lead my life as it was before. now is good. but before, far much better.

so, basically... i'm taking my own sweet time. to just sit back. and yeah, enjoy this moment before i let it go... forever and for good...

for me, and for everyone... love is the only thing that unite US.. me and you...


Posted at 08:39 am by misznana
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Tuesday, March 28, 2006
hilang... dan hilang lagi...

tak ... tak ... aku tak hilang. ada kat sini. cam biasa. kerja. hidup dan berjuang. tapi aku tak sihat. secara mental dan fizikal. zahir dan batin aku tak sihat. tak berada dalam kondisi yang bagus. sentiasa ada aral yang melintang lalu membujur patah. tapi aku tetap relaks. tetap cool. tetap tenang. ini semua dugaan-dugaan.

maafkan aku tak boleh sahut terus cabaran juring. aku tak sihat makanya, setting timedateline kat minda aku lari sedikit. lalu terlepas tarikh. aku silap perhitungan. tapi tak pe la. bukan.. bukan sebab aku takut, bukan sebab aku hangat-hangat tahi ayam. tapi tahi sebatu di depan kita tak leh nak bau kan? dah pulak bila terpijak baru tahu. makan masa nak basuh tahi tu lagik. lebih kurang camtu la. so, aku tak leh nak tumpukan seluruh konsentrasi dan beri komitmen yang konsisten. sudahnya aku dijuring. takpe. buat juringers yang lain, selamat maju jaya. dan selamat menang uwang berjuta juta RUPIAH tu. tapi sebenarnya aku sependapat ngan moluska, sedikit rimas dengan juri. tapi tak pe. aku takder hal. janji LAYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN... hehehehe :D

lepas-lepas nih aku jarang online, online bila balik sentul aja. time lain aku tak mungkin nak online. bakal pindah kerja tempat baru yang takder access internet. dan masa kerja yang terbalik. hehehe :D siang tidor malam kerja. macam burung hantu. boleh laaa kan? lebih kurang la tu.

tapi yang pasti, April depan abah dah pencen, maybe aku akan kerja dekat KL. Dekat sikit ngan rumah, stay ngan mak and abah. layan chill la pulak. tahun depan dah 26, dah boleh pikir nak kawin orang kata. aku kata relaks dulu. bukan senang nak kawen. bukan boleh kawen setiap tahun. kalau boleh takper laa.. memang aku dah sibuk skang cari bakal suami. tapi relaks je la. no rush.

buat madu yang mencari diriku, nanti aku sms ko kay.. buat yang tertanya kenapa aku tak online dah lama, aku dah jawab pertanyaan korang, buat jejaka kacak yang masih belum berpunya, saya pon single jugak!

miahahahahahahahahahahahahahahh :D

oh yer, no henpon aku masih yang dulu. kalau ada apa-apa hal, boleh bagitahu kay!!! tanya madu aku no telepon aku kalau korang tatau.

chow bebeh.. sehingga aku apdet ntah bila bulan lagik...

take care... jaga diri hias peribadi!!!


Posted at 01:27 pm by misznana
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Thursday, March 09, 2006
pendek

busy gila

tapi otak tengah pikir pasal JURING

penat kerja

tapi seronok sebab tak bosan kat tempat kerja sebab ada je kerja nak mengisi masa lapang yang sekarang dah tak terbuang

hendak ...

tapi takut tak dapat...

 

tido lagik best!!!

 


Posted at 05:11 pm by misznana
what what ???  

Tuesday, February 21, 2006
JURING II

selamat bertarung...

selamat berjuang...

selamat mendapat takhta...

ingatkan ada ujibakat. so, tak yakin dapat jadi peserta Juring II pon. tapi alhamdulillah. ntah kenapa, dapat pulak jadik. takut? debar? gabra? kecut? gigil? semua pon ada. banyak seronok dari takut. tapi aku tak tunjuk. takut nanti konfiden terlampau. maka, aku cuba untuk meneutralkan perasaan.

cabaran 0 dah bermula. cabaran pertama bakal menyusul tiba. tak lama lagi la tu.

geng genap. yep! aku ahli geng genap. bukan geng jahanam. geng genap. geng ganjil ada kak amyz ngan hayazi. wah wah.. tapi akan aku buat kroni baru di Geng Genap. aku blombaca lagik blog ahli-ahli GENAP. ye lah, ini saing. bukan gu. atochsmart2, samurai, zaza, elmaaniq dan ahsuez. elmaaniq menang catatan menyentuh hati terbalik Gath GEJU 2005. tak ah. tak takut pon. skill, kuku dan taring aku belum diasah nih. lepas ini, bersedia lah!

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tapi sebelum tu, setelah di TAG oleh madu, aku kene buat benda nih.

5 makanan memori manis masa jadi kanak-kanak

1. sambal sardin dan nasik lembik panas-panas

hanya terdapat di rumah. home-cooked nih. beli kat luar takkan sama rasanya. enak di makan tak kira masa. breakfast, lunch mahupon dinner. nasi lembik tuh sebenarnya nasi biasa yang di masak terlebih air. sambal sardin pula hanya dari tin yang bergambar AYAM. yakni, sardin cap AYAM. cap lain aku tak layan. haha :D. tapi syarat utama, mesti sedang-sedang pedas dan suam-suam kuku. boleh buat aku tambah nasi empat pinggan. sedap hingga menjilat pinggan! pergh!!

2. keropok lekor kantin sekolah kebangsaan

karena menjadi pengganas a.k.a pengawas bersenjatakan AK47 a.k.a Buku Denda, aku terpaksa datang sekolah awak untuk mempertahankan kubu dan mempersiapkan diri. sampai-sampai sekolah, pengganas lain bersiap nak ke medan perang, di zon kawasan masing-masing. seperti pagar depan, pagar belakang, gelanggang, dewan dan kawasan-kawasan yang sewaktu dengannya. aku tak. aku terus ke gelanggang makan. beli keropok barang lima nam keping baru aku berjalan ke zon merah. kawasan jajahan takluk aku selalu di pejabat sekolah. senang. tak der banyak budak-budak lalu. lagipon sapa nak tengok pejabat sekolah. bosan seh! makan sambil menjaga keselamatan. masa rehat pon aku kene keluar awal, dan masa nih order dari kawan-kawan bagaikan aku bukak kedai keropok lekor. sebab keropok lekor nih sangat laku. letak je di pasaran, tunggu dua minit, tinggal serdak. dan tanya adik aku betapa dia bertuah dapat kakak pengganas nih. keluar rehat lambat macamana sekali pon, dia tetap dapat makan keropok lekor, makan makanan yang dia mahu, dan dapat duduk di tempat kelas atasan. sebab apa? sebab kakak dia antara pengganas paling ganas. keropok lekor dan pengganas. huh!

3. nasi lemak sekolah agama

sekali pon sudah ku tala nasi lemak sebungkus sebelum keluar rumah nak kesekolah, sampai pagar aku terus ke kantin. sebelum tuh mintak abah 60 sen, nasi lemak 40 sen, dan extra untuk jajan lain. nasi lemak dia world. sangat world. tak berapa pedas. dan paling best, telur dadar dan ikan bilis rangup. mak cik tu pon dah tahu aku nak makan apa bila aku sampai. terus dia letak nasi lemak atas pinggan dan sudu.

4. limau kasturi dan asam boi merah.

habis merah-merah mulut dan gigi. tapi hanya boleh makan lepas balik sekolah dan terdapat di luar pagar sekolah kebangsaan. sampai rumah dengan mulut merah semacam. bila mak tanya, aku cakap makan aiskrim asamboi. kalau dia tahu aku sesah bendalah tuh, selamat la dia potong duit belanja. tapi tak lama, sebab hari-hari aku balik rumah perut sakit. hahaha :D sekali sekala kene, memang layan beb!!

5. super ring - di kedai berhampiran anda pon ada

seposen sepeket, sekali beli tiga posen, tiga peket. aku akan makan cepat-cepat sebelum sampai rumah sebab sure kene buang dalam tong sampah kalau abah nampak. pernah sekali aku tak sempat nak makan, simpan dua peket dalam beg sekolah. jadik cerita, mak check beg sekolah, maklumlah, budak baik.. tak bawak buku sekolah, bawak Gila-Gila. so, apa lagi, nasib la badan tak makan super ring, dan nasibla super ring masuk tong sampah.masuk tong sampah tak per, tapi di keluarkan isi nya dan di tolak-tolak ke dalam. dulu sekali dia buang cam tu aja, aku ambil dan basuh plastik luar, lalu melantak super ring. taktik lama tak berkesan, dia siap renyukkan lagik. huh..

nak kene tag tiga orang ke??? apa kata tag pada geng genap dalam JURING II kan?? so, untuk kawan-kawan sekumpulan GENAP.. sila buat.. miahahahaha :D


Posted at 04:40 pm by misznana
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Tuesday, February 14, 2006
this thing.. is gonna be soooooooooo freaking LONG!!!

i was reading the MySpace bulletin just now and found this so-called-fact posted. so, i tot.. what the hell... i might as well read it and you know.. for my own amusement and also for fun.. but then i tot again, why didnt i just give 'em some critics to each fact written kan???

so, here it is.. the one that in BOLD.. is my sarcastics comment... i likey!!

haha :D

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99 SECRETS GIRLS HAVE TO KNOW ABOUT GUYS - right!!

1. Guys don't actually look after good-looking girls. They prefer neat and presentable girls.

*how sure are you? your eyes are about to dropped out of it socket everytime you see gorgeous girls kan??*

2. Guys hate flirts.

*hate to flirts or girls who flirts??? statement dude... but if you were saying that you guys hate to flirts??? huh!! i might had a heart attacked then!!*

3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.

*as sure as hell*


4. When a guy says he doesn't understand you, it simply means you're not thinking the way he is.

*yeah.. blame us for not understanding that alien language you were practising here!!*

5. "Are you doing something?" or "Have you eaten already?" are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.

*this is just lame, but it's true..*

6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

*oh fak!!! why am i reading/doing this??*

7. When a guy really likes you, he'll disregard all your bad characteristics.

*so called that the love is BLIND uh??*

8. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

*i know this.. and yeah... give em the most sweetest+cutest+craziest smile, and he'll be drooling!!haha :D*

9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl's attention.

*you bet they did!!*

10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.

*girls who did this, r complete moron!!

11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.

*get ready to carry that WIFEY title girls*

12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can't. And they sure have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking!

13. Guys cry!!!

*i know...*

14. Don't provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.

*i know...*

15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.

*i know.. as sure as hell!!*

16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.

*i have a question - WHY???* 

17. When you touch a guy's heart, there's no turning back.

*i know, but i guess he never touched mine..*

18. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?! ..uh...never mind!" would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.

*yeah, better finish your sentence honey..*

19. Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands.

*i know..* 

20. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

*for real.. they are all the same..*

21. When a guy makes a prolonged "umm" or makes any excuses when you are asking him to do you a favor, he's actually saying that he doesn't like you and he can't lay down the card for you.

*and when he do that, move on! to other guy.. i mean..*

22. When a girl says "no", a guy hears it as "try again tomorrow."

*hahaha... this is good.. do they???*

23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.

*they are just so slow girls, tell 'em with full sentence and directly to the point..*

24. Guys hate gays!

*yup, because they're jealous agaknya...*

25. Guys love their moms.

*if you got a momma's boy, you're almost dead*

26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.

*really??? that is so cool... tissue anyone??*

27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn't mean that the guy likes her.

*u see now what are actually they try to do here???*

28 You can never understand him unless you listen to him.

*listen and patience... *

29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.

*those are ur otherhalf to heaven!!!*

30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.

*this si so absofakinglately TRUE!!!*

31. Like Eve, girls are guys' weaknesses.

*hahahaha :D*

32. Guys are very open about themselves.

*yes... sometimes.. TOO OPEN.. that could scare the hell out of girls Jack!!*

33. It's good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don't let him wait that long.

*yup... and that could cost you Jenny!*

34. No guy is bad when he is courting

*seriously???*

35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.

*some of them...*

36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they're not that much pretty.

*he likes her la.. so, no matter what kan??*

37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

*i don't blame her..*

38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

*listen and listen.. no matter what you're saying, they are always right!! remember!*

39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

*yeap, he wanted to test you lah..*

40. A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.

*huh?? :D*

41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts.

*really??? how can i be wrong??? i tot the shorter the better???*

42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.

*huh... like always...*

43. Guys virtually brag about anything.

*they always did... please... i'm begging you to believe me!*

44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.

*damn those mouths*

45. Guys think too much.

*they did?? really??? oh hell!!! fak it!!*

46. Guys' fantasies are unlimited.

*as sure as hell*

47. Girls' height doesn't really matter to a guy but her weight does!

*no wonder that girls are obsessed with their weight!!! they started it!!*

48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!!

*been there...done that.. it sucks!!*

49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl.

*talking about revenge here eh???* 

50. It's not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they've been together for 3 years or more.

*they sometimes have this capital L written on their forehead.. somehow!!*

51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.

*make it loud and clear...or else...*

52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be matured and grow up.

*that .. is so true!! so true!!*

53. When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.

*owh.. okay... what?? drinking and get stoned???*

54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.

*no wonder*

55. Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed pussycats with their girlfriends.

*sometimes kan, i was just wondering.. DOES HE HAVE HIS BALLS WITH HIM NOW???*

56. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he's sweating. You'll probably see that he is nervous.

*yup, they were about to look like a steamed chicken..*

57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.

*i know.. poor her...haha :D*

58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying "Please come and listen to me"

*sit next to him and comfort him Jenny.. that's what you should do...*

59. Guys don't really have final decisions.

*unmatured and stoopidity equals to those who have Adam's apple in their throat!*

60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.

*i kinda love this one..*

61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.

*again... listen...*

62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.

*say "shut up and listen!!" .. for e.g.*

63. Guys believe that there's no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.

*again.... moroness strikes back!*

64. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

*yup!!! i actually believe in this statement*

65. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

*they wanted to rule the world..remember??*

66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.

*and here we go again... BALLS??? NO-No-NO!!*

67. A guy would waste his time over video games and basketball, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.

*and we did that for you.. can't you see it?? duh!!*

68. Guys love girls who can cook or bake.

*oh lord.. help me with baking as i'm OKAY with cooking now!!*

69. Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!

*minus the nagging!*

70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

*now that you girls have to get worried about...*

71. A guy's friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage.

*owh, and what happen when i like his friend??*

72. Don't be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection.

*snob when ONLY when you need to*

73. Don't be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you'll be surprised.

*i am suprised now..*

74. Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys.

*imagine you as a stinky socks... don't go OD on that thing Jenny..*

75. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.

*they sure did...*

76. Guys don't comprehend the statement "Get lost" too well.

*coz they will without you knowing... arse ain't they?*

77. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.

 *hahaha :D so weird!!*

78. When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.

*no more stoopid jokes, Jenny.. and yeah, do the same thing when they make fun of you..*

79. Guys don't care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.

*coz they wore slippers!!*

80. Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them,they'll realize they're wrong.

*what did i say just now?? they are all WRONG!!*

81. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He's just too stubborn to deal with it.

*and too lazy .. too unmature.. too stoopid*

82. Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.

*and they actually swear?? like every single minutes?*

83. Guys' weakest point is at the knee.

*oh really? i tot it was their Lil' BROTHER..*

84. When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.

*that's because they're afraid..*

85. When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things.

*now that's when i love McGuyver*

86. When a guy looks at you, either he's amazed of you or he's criticizing you.

*obviously, they can imagine things beyond our expectations.."


87. When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.

*once is enough.. two times??? fuck off!!*

88. If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.

*he should've asked me to stay..*

89. If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you're with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.

*hahahah :D fak!!*

90. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

*again...fak laaa..*

91. You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!

*don't you ever play with tears Jenny!!!*

92. If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.

*now answer this honey, WHY??*

93. When a guy says he can't sleep if he doesn't hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.

*that is one jackass player.. hahaha :D*

94. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.

*owh.. it's sooo hard to find those kind of guys nowadays...*

95. Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.

*because they know that GUY seldom use their brain*

96. Girls are allowed to touch boys' things. Not their hair!

*hahaha :D*

97. If a guy says you're beautiful, that guy likes you.

*of course.. he's crazy..*

98. Guys hate girls who overreact.

*just don't act like a bimbo.. or some stoopid blonde-wannabe Jenny*

99. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

*IF...*

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so much for Valentines entry kan?? sambut valentine ke? ikut hukum berdosa kan? tapi selagi ko tak buat perkara-perkara yng menjatuhkan hukum haram dan berlebih-lebihan aku rasa.. aku rasa tak pe. benda biasa. lagi pon, hari kasih sayang. bukan hari berperang. ntah laa.. salah cakap kang kene saman. haha :D

but hey, entry di atas bukan bermakna aku ANTI-LELAKI. tak la.. aku cuma cam saja jer.. ye la... dah nak dekat suku abad hidup kan, macam-macam lelaki aku jumpa, so, macam sedikit pembetulan kenyataan laaa.. bukan semua aku siang, kan ada yang setuju sangat-sangat..

anyway, untuk semua orang... selamat berkasih sayang!!!!

muah muah!!


Posted at 02:31 pm by misznana
what what ???  

Saturday, February 11, 2006
The Madu's Wish List

  1. dinner at anywhere yang sangat cantik dan romantika di amour. starts with lovely appetizer and end up dengan marvellous dessert. accompanied by wine. Chardonnay would be good kan??
  2. then off to any or club. have a couple of drinks and chat the whole night. enjoy the music and that moment. dance a lil bit. have fun.
  3. back home with sweet memories and then lepak kat playground main swings.
  4. masuk rumah dapat hadiah plak... besides card and chocolates and flowers, and yeah.. that sweet sexy lingerie.
  5. the rest??? P&C lah!!

dream on!!! itu sebenarnya wishlist nak buat apa on Valentines night.... macam best je kan?? tapi kalau betul memang best nih... sumpah tak carik lain!! hahahah :D

my madu buat wishlist nak macam-macam.. ko memang materialistik la madu.. kereta dan barang kemas!! adeeehhh... mati laaa anak jutawan yang malang tuh!! hahahah :D er... baidewei, my madu is actually LIN. hahah :D we share Lenz as our husband. boleh??

neway, this is just ... for FUN... since i got nothing to do, and decided earlier with my madu that we gonna do it together... but then, obviously... semua yang aku wish ada elemen-elemen romantik dan more to memories. bukan material la. kalau ada pon that sexy lingerie.

tapi ini pon namanya wishlist.. kalau dapat best.. tak dapat tak per...

 


Posted at 11:16 am by misznana
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Tuesday, February 07, 2006
tak best

kerja maha banyak.... super duper berganda....

penat tahap dewa... triple fourple meletihkan badan dan otak...

dan yang paling tak bes.. gaji belom masuk. sebab ada kesilapan teknikal masa antar claim dulu. so, salah aku jugak le sebenarnya.. skang bukan ke padan muka dah kene makan maggie... hahahah :D tapi aku suka... makan maggie...

semalam baca e-mail aku yang Ena balas... gila lembap balas e-mail aku... sampai naik lupa.... well, borak sakan macam live jugak. berjela-jela. tapi aku tertarik kat apa yang dia cakap.

"tak yah nak main-mainkan dia... kita buat orang, nanti orang buat kita balik"

terus kecut perut aku... haah la... so, aku batalkan niat tak suci tak murni aku tuh. kepada siapa dan kenapa. biarlah... malas nak jawab. hahaha :D

betulla orang cakap, masa kita tengah gembira semua kawan rapat kat kita.. masa kita tengah berduka, susah, nak carik sorang yang boleh paham masalah kita punya lah susah. sebenarnya hati makin kering sejak akhir-akhir nih. macam dah kurang perasaan. agak-agak kalau keadaan menyakitkan hati dan memeningkan kepala untuk aku pikir, aku amik langkah buat tak tahu dan tinggalkan aja di situ. hati dah kering. kalau barang yang aku sayang tapi tak boleh nak repair aku buang je. tak yah nak simpan-simpan. hati dah kering. kira cam gitu la.. aku contohkan barang dulu sebelum aku contohkan kawan dan seterusnya lawan.

kalau kawan yang dulu aku ingat boleh jadik kawan dan sahabat sampai bila-bila sebab ada persamaan dan kami memang baik, skang aku tak rasa apa pun kat dia. aku rasa cam ah.. malas gua nak layan lu lagik. lepas nih apa yang barang gua ada pada lu bak sini, barang lu kat gua akan gua pulangkan. lepas tuh kalau boleh gua tak nak tengok lagik muka lu,. tak nak dengar cerita pasal lu. tak nak call lu. mesej lu. tak nak gi mana-mana pon ngan lu. sebab gua dah fed-up. asyik jaga hati orang then orang tak reti jaga hati gua. so, malas nak layan.

kalau untuk lawan, lu nak teruskan lawan gua perang habis-habisan teruskanla.. gua tak kuasa nak layan lu jack. gua naik letih ah layn lu. bukan dapat apa pon. so, suit yourself. buat la apa lu rasa lu suka dan lu nak buat. gua tak der hal nak bangkang. lagik pon lu lawan gua.

so, kesimpulan yang tersimpul di sini, bukan sekali dua aku pikir dan blog pasal kawan dan lawan nih. berkali-kali. tapi selama nih aku duk ikut dan duk layan hati orang. orang tak pernah nak layan hati aku. sekarang hati aku dah kering. dah tak berperasaan. gua malas nak layan jack.. serius shit.. PENAT... GUA PENAT JACK!!!

 


Posted at 02:51 pm by misznana
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Thursday, February 02, 2006
jangan takut

takut nak kawan ngan aku?? alamak.. jangan ah gitu.. aku tak makan orang ah... paling kuat pon gigit je.. miahahahahh :D

well, actually, ini adalah kali pertama orang konfes kat aku depan-depan cakap takut nak kawan ngan aku? ok.. first thing first?? apsal nak takut plak? aku bukan makan orang. aku bukan kanibal holokos seyy... perghh... tak der masa nak makan orang.. daging manusia tidak sedap.. baik makan ikan ke, ayam ke, udang ke.. baru best.. orang?? tidak laa...

tapi aku rasa aku tahu sebab apa... tapi mungkin tidak... mungkin betul dan iya, mungkin benar... tapi mungkin tidak... eh.. ntah la... nak tahu apsal dia takut kawan ngan aku pon aku tak sampai hati nak tanya. dah tanya pulak ambik masa nak jawab... ada pulak yang tak boleh tidur karang alasan sebab aku tanya dan mintak tiga sebab sekukuh konkrit kenapa takut nak kawan ngan aku?.. aiseh...

tapi ada orang cakap aku garang.. muka cam tak peramah.. senyap.. ye lah beb, tu time ko jumpa aku pertama kali... first time ko jumpa orang mesti ko nak relaks dulu chill.. layan tengok karakter.. silap masuk kandang nanti sapa yang susah. takkan kau nak mengembek kat kandang badak kan? ko mesti la membadak kalau kat kandang badak. badak membadak macamana?? aiseh..

so, biasa sangat aku dapat feedback macam nih sebab dewang tak kenal aku sangat dan aku pon tak kenal dewang sangat. tapi lepas dua tiga kali jumpa. dah borak lama, ayat yang biasa sangat aku dengar macam ...

" ko nih banyak mulut gak kan?? "

" aku ingat ko nih senyap la dulu masa mula-mula jumpa. tak bercakap. cam anti-sosial "

haha :D anti-sosial ko kata?? perghh.. salah tuh. aku sooooooooooooooooosial beb. seriously.. tapi bak kata aku tadik, membadak di kandang badak.. chill dulu. bila dah rasa cam boleh masuk maknanya korang memang best dan aku boleh kawan ngan korang sampai bila-bila selagi ada respek antara kita... cewah... macam 3R. relak, respon dan respek.  

yup, memang aku banyak aktiviti luar. banyak kawan. itu hasil keramahan aku yang tahapnya sukar ditafsirkan lagik. ramah bertempat sebenarnya. aktiviti luar pon bertempat, bersebab dan berlimit. berpermit juga perlu. tidak la aku main sesah dan main belasah je. silap-silap tidor kat hotel besi. miahahahah :D simpang malaikat 44 la k!

esok dah khamis, dari jumaat lepas, sebelum raya cina kerja aku makan, tidor, tengok tv, main internet, makan, tidor, tengok tv, main internet sampai naik boring. esok ingat nak balik Damansara, tapi kalau sorang-sorang je kompem sangap nak mati. nak kemas rumah sebenarnya. tapi tengok la keadaan camana. maybe la kot.. maybe aku balik hari jumaat. tengok keadaan. kalau esok pon ok gak.. esok khamis. heheheeh :D dah lama tak menginjak kaki mencucuk atap nih. tapi sabtu nak patah balik KL... sebab ada apppointment ngan madu dan member lain ke Yow Chuan untuk sesi melalak dan pemilihan vokalist. hahah :D yo yo orrr... je kan??

we'll see... so, ingat... 3 R..

respek diri anda

ambil masa untuk relaks

dan respon kepada persekitaran...


Posted at 12:50 am by misznana
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