tokei kedai mamak mesti garuk kepala. kalau teh tarik orang dah banned. nescafe banyak kafein pon tak banyak permintaan. milo mahal. horlicks tak ramai peminat. TEH O ke??? ahahahahah :D balik minum air sirap limau la. limau ais pon sedap. haa... lepas nih mesti penanam pokok limau kasturi kaya sey. apa lagik, jom ramai-ramai tanam pokok limau. mak aku kata, kalaunak buat teh o taruk limau, pakai limau kasturi. tapi kalau nak buat ais limau, pakai limau nipis. lebih kick. aku pakai je mana-mana tapi bukan limau mandarin!

mana nak best makan roti canai dengan teh o? mesti nak layan dengan teh tarik. susu cap teko kene buat satu produk susu berkrim rendah lemak. tapi kalau susu, rendah lemak. apa nama susu itu?? nak pakai susu gantung tak boleh beb, habis semua bayi-bayi kekurangan zat. orang dewasa plak makin sihat. tapi memang dari dulu aku tak reti nak buat TEH TARIK dan tak berapa suka minum TEH TARIK. sebab ada susu. tu sebabnya ada yang kata aset-aset aku semua tak mengancam sebab aku kurang minum susu. fak la. mana ada macam tuh. dah aset-aset aku semua comel cam aku, takkan aku nak pi paksa dia terover saiz. kecik salah, besar salah. kempis salah, mantap pon salah. hish...

tapi sekuat mana pon berita atau artikel nih tersebar dikalangan hantu-hantu teh tarik seluruh alam, percayalah, meraka takkan berhenti minum teh tarik. tapi kurang la sikit KOT. KOT NYA. cuba kau keluarkan fakta, teh tarik boleh menyebabkan mati pucuk seawal 30 tahun.. ha... masa tuh aku rasa ramai yang tak minum teh tarik. hahahahaha :D

antara fakta yang best dan menakutkan meskipun ia tak betul

merokok menyebabkan anda bodoh serta-merta

menonton filem lucah menyebabkan anda buta serta merta

mengumpat menyebabkan mulut anda berkulat

membuat maksiat di khayalak umum menyebabkan anda di panah petir

membuat bising dan berlagak bagus membuatkan anda terkene sihir menjadi GAGAP dan BISU

memaki team bola lawan menyebabkan team anda kalah teruk

fakta bingai yang aku suka

membayar cukai kepada kerajaan menyebabkan MAS membeli lukisan 1.6 juta

memakai lencana anti rasuah menyebabkan anda menerima pujian, sebaik sahaja ditanggalkan anda boleh terima rasuah semula

berbaik dengan menteri air mata menyebabkan anda menerima AP dengan mudah

berkahwin dengan orang kaya menyebabkan anda menerima hantaran sejumlah RM77,888 *orang kaya tak pernah tengok Bersamamu di TV3*

berkahwin grand-grand dan satu malaysia kepoh menyebabkan anda kini tinggal berasingan setelah dua tahun bersama

terlalu bongkak menjadi pemainbola menyebabkan anda maki penonton *hakikatnya kau dah tak reti nak main bola*

terlalu taksub dengan mawi menyebabkan anda yang pakai tudung labuh pon sanggup balik 3-4 pagi semata-mata nak tengok dia menyanyi.

terlalu taksub dengan mawi *lagi* menyebabkan anda kehilangan taste dalam menilai suara bermutu dengan suara berkutu

dah dah... boleh masuk ISA aku nih..

bangun awal. kol 10. kira awal la tu. bangun siap-siap terus nak ke Putrajaya. Janji berjumpa di Ampang Point dengan seorang dua gejuis lain. naik kete sorang mat rock geju ke putrajaya. singgah di bandar tasik selatan untuk amik sorang lagi awek geju. singgah ke Alamanda dan nikmat sundae McTwist masih terasa. sampai di Precint 8, dah ada dua tiga kelibat ahli geju yang sibuk berlatih untuk jadik dj dan mc dan yang nak setelkan hal hadiah dan pendaftaran. bukan senang nak jadi mc. konfiden dan suara kene dijaga. mula seawal 3 petang walaupun dekat 45 minit jugak delay program. pembukaan yang bagus oleh kedua MC. memang boleh dibanggakan. secara keseluruhan, perjalanan majlis amat stabil. bagus. maybe sebab aku tak tumpukan perhatian sangat. sebab sibuk jumpa orang dan sibuk main bola cop-cop dengan memel anak spy. dan ekceli sebab aku agak kecewa dengan makanan yang PADA PANDANGAN AKU tak la berbaloi dengan jumlah bayaran. tahun depan boleh improve ok! penting gathering nih, kalau aturcara tip top macamana pon, makanan kau tak memuaskan. orang boleh jadik bingit. hahahah :D nasib baik aku tak kisah sangat sebab aku tak lapar nak mati. tapi kalau aku lapar nak mati, begitu punya makanan aku dijamu. mau terbalik meja. hahahaha :D ok.. ok.. aku ekzejeret story nih. acara yang aku suka adalah unplugged session oleh ND dan Ap. wa cakap lu, aku dah macam tak sedau diri pon ada. sebabnya seronok sangat. pilihan lagu menarik. so, happening. masa tuh memang best. masa tuh dengan masa amik gambar. syabas buat para AJK. segala kekurangan tuh boleh diperbaiki untuk masa akan datang. bila di tegur jangan melenting nak XXXXX orang beb. adat la.. bukan korang je yang pernah buat gathering. aku pernah buat gathering untuk berkali-kali juga. semua yang tak puas hati, aku terima komen mereka dengan hati yang terbuka walaupun hanya tuhan je yang tahu berapa bakul aku maki balik mereka-mereka ini. so, kalau aku di maki berbakul-bakul sekalipon aku tak kisah. hahahaha :D tapi aku cukup suka cenderahati yangberupa keychain dan buku nota comel tuh. nanti aku nak cakap keychain tuh keychain kereta. Jenama Gengjurnal. miaaaaaaaaaaaahahaha :D

tahun baru nih mungkin cara penulisan agak berbeza. dah tak tumpu sangat pada aku. pada orang lain aku rasa. pada benda lain. pada kejadian lain. asyik-asyik cerita pasal aku je kan? kali nih aku buat sedikit renovasi. cerita pasal benda lain. pasal kau ke? pasal dia ke? pasal aku mestila ada. blog aku kan? bukan blog ayah jiran aku punya kambing angkat. cuma mungkin bahasanya aku kekalkan. segala perkataan sumbang akan tetap keluar cuma akan sedikit disensorkan. dwibahasa akan tetap ada. kalau aku belajar jawa dengan lebih mendalam jadik tribahasa. tambah bahasa binatang nanti fourbahasa. pendek kata. berbahasa-bahasa. pendek kata lagi, ikut cara lama aku menulis, cuma subjeknya akan lebih bervariasi. tak tertumpu pada aku. MY LIFE tukar kepada EVERYBODY'S LIFE.. kan?? itu pendek kata. panjang tak kata apa-apa. nanti kalau si panjang berkata-kata mau makan tiga hari pat belas malam aku menaip!!

tahun nih takder resolution. takder azam baru. eh.. ada.. nak habiskan azam aku 24 tahun yang lepas. hehehe :D tinggal beberapa je lagik. kira kata dah setel semua azam-azam tuh, dan aku akan minum air zam zam sambil berazam baru. zam zam allakazam.

tahun nih satu je cita-cita aku. nak kawin.

i woke up felt like i was hit by an Airbus. headache, backache.. ok ok.. ALL OVER ACHE to be precise. and my room is spinning around. i felt like a moron. then it was hot, a minutes after it was cold. hot cold hot and cold. then i reached out to my phone. it's 7.30 am and i couldnt even lift my legs?? dammeit!!! what's happening here?? owhh.. ok... i was attacked by a high fever. damn those fever viruses and yes... padan muka la because of my intelligency and stoneheaded habit, i remembered then last night i was a bit damp due to raining on the way back home. and i only took my bath at almost 10.00 pm with cold water. great. just nice!!!! still, with my phone in my hand i read all the b'day messages.. owh, it's my birthday today.. what a great birthday morning. great!!! those smses came from zura, my mom, aris and a few other freinds who remembered my birthday as i remember theirs. luv u guys!!! so, next is, smsed my boss - Jason telling him that i'm not well and wouldn't be able to work that day. tried very freaking hard to get up and chow down 2 Panadols with a 100 Plus. Jason reply my msg and wished me to get well soon and DO NOT CELEBRATE NU YEAR IN FEVER.. hahahah a:D funny huh!!

then, i doozed off for almost three hours and i woke up just to fill up my empty stomach with some scramble eggs. called my mom who is on the way back to KL from kampung. asked her to fetched me terus shoot balik KL. back at home, i felt better, then we went out to have dinner. my mom's treat as it is my birthday. hehehe. balik tuh, beli pizza lagik. makan banyak cam babi betul!! hahahah :D

my handphone went kaput. flip tuh, if i closed it. then when, i opened the flipper, phone terus off! went kaput at this time is not good man!! not good!! then, i went off to bed.. EARLY.... damn early!!! thanks to the medicine...

31 December 2005

happy birthday sis Dona.

woke up at almost 2 pm. no. no new year celebration. nothing in mind. my body is weak. nothing. so, plan untuk sambut nu year dan birthday secara beriman telah makbul!! ahahahahah :D went off to bed early too. shit!! thanks to all my mother cooking. i went to bed with full stomach.

 

 

another two hours to my 24th birthday! and also another 6 hours and 46 minutes, i was born 24 years ago at General Hospital Kuala Lumpur. yeah!! i am proud to be a KL girl! but here i am. alone. at my room. writing this down while listening to the radio. getting ready to sleep i guess. nope, no celebration. to tell u the truth, i am not feeling well. i could just go and have a party but since i don't want to make things worst, i just sit down and tight at my room. there is a few plans to celebrate my brithday secara kurang beriman but i pushed it away. i don't know.. but i just feel like i dont want anymore party this time around. don't. don't ever asked me why.. even i know it was gonna be a lavish, superb, and sponsored party. yup! you read it right. sponsored! i ain't gonna spent a single cent on it and yet, i don't know why did i say no to it. maybe the number is getting bigger and yeah, something or someone had said or did something to me. but i don't know!! hahaha!!

i guess what i need is my own space, my own time. just to sit and relax and think about what i've gone through for the past 24 years. thankful and yes, blessed. tho' i've been thru hell and so on. but yet, i'm still here. standing with my two feet. feeling good about everything that happend to me tho' it is not good at all and it sucks. i did so many things. the one that i like and the one that i don't like. i have a lots of precious sweet memories and also the unlike feel like shit thingy. but all this, somehow, yes.. somehow, those things actually thought me about life. about how life's work. what is it actually about? the ups and downs? what's real and what's not? making friends, fall in love, break off, feel wasted, stupidity , careless, selfish and stuff. these things actually make me stronger. day by day. all the love and the hateness, the pro's and con's. positives and negatives. u know, those stuff YING and YANG. yeah, i'm so thankful for all that i had, i'd gone through, and here i am, still alive and kicking. but all aside, these people, all of them, have made me a better person in my life. whether they knew about it.. or NOT.

my mom - my heart, my air, who will always be there when i need her. she spoilt me. to the max!! she did!!i love her very much that one cannot ever express it in words.

my dad - my life and my guide. he didn't talk that much, but once he open his mouth, i could spend the whole day crying feeling like a moron.

my sister - my happiness and my joy. tho' she's freaking lazy and so heavy and she always annoys me and make me angry. but somehome, all my problem will just fucked off when she started to tell me her stupid jokes and quizzes.amazing kan?

my brother - we didnt talk that much but we knows everything and so do i. we somehow .. maybe in our sleeptalking has made a vow that whatever happen, we will stick together!!

my ONLY bestfriend - ENA. or her fullname, AZLINA HASSAN. she will always be there for me, spiritually, physically and yes, financially. haha :D she would never say no whenever i asked for her shoulder to cry on or her ears to burst out my feeling! one hell of friend she is!!

my arwan WAN - my late grandmother. my lovely lovely lovely late grandmother. tho' she passed away almost 8 years ago, i can still feel her besides me

all them, all them... all... i could only pray for their healthy, safety, prosperity and wellness ... that's all i could do in return. The rest is up to HIM.

and to HIM, for giving me all the chances to stay this long. Giving me all that i asked for. well, more or less. how lucky i am?? owh, believe me, u wouldn't want to know!!

to the Devils/Satans/Demons or whatever bad things.. well, fuck you!!! hahahah :D you lead me to the wrong way sometimes but eat your heart out losers, i always find my way back to home. SAFELY!! touchwood!!

be gone to all bad memories. what past is past. it can't be undone. we can't reverse the time and not even a Superman or Doraemon could do it.

my mind language, my French and my foul wordsssss. sorry for any troubles that i had coused as long as we known each other. for those people who are sometimes brave enough to get to their nerves saying shit and things to me thru this blog. i thanks you all. imagine what would life be without you losers?? dull ain't it???

it's tomorrow. yes everybody.. IT'S TOMORROW. why did i feel so happy about tomorrow. i don't know. it's not like the day like tomorrow never come.. infact tomorrow is the 24th times and yes, tonight is the eve. i don't really wanna celebrate it like last year. i didn't remember a thing. i woke up the next day feeling like i was hit by a truck. but heck. it was last year celebration. so, thinking about something cool and nice. simple and easy for this year, i decided to stay at home!! hahahah :D yes you read it rite... i just wanna sit back, relax and yeah... sleep! there's a plan of celebrating it tonite in KL at Jalan Ampang. but i feel like staying home. seriously.. don't asked me why. i don't how to answer that.

but maybe... MAYBE... MAYBE laa... not confirmed yet, i'll have a few buddies coming to my place on Saturday. i'll prepare dinner and we are gonna do our own movie marathon, while having dinner and maybe also, we will get wet the whole night at the pool. simple and nice. no extreme thingy and so on. and then, countdown for new year! that's all. these people i've invited are actually my real buddies. who were there when i need them and would lend their shoulders and ears when i have problems. tho' i didn't spent that much time with them, whenever i'm with them, we will have so much freaking fun together and we never argue about little things and they are one hell of a good friends that i can asked for!

the housemates maybe have their own plans for new year, so, i wouldn't want them to cancel it just because of me. they will always see me. each and every single day! infact, maybe i'll spend the whole EVE with them kan?? it's new year, sure they got plan somewhere with someone. :D

i did planned to get my ass back to my parents house. well, one good brother told me that such celebration should be celebrated with the one you love the most. well, we'll see. if i can get back home tomorrow, sure thing. i would love to spend the whole night with my family too. and since i'm not working on saturday. u know. maybe if all that i plan is good and then, i have to drag Ena back to my apartment and have her the whole week by myself. :D she's gonna help me of course. with everything!! eheheh :D

been thinking lately, about HE who came back to me. and i think that all this are happening too fast and i should sit and rethink of what i should do. maybe take things slowly. or play along while i'll keep my backdoor open incase he fucked up again kan? or should i just ignore and take all the risk since i think that i love HIM so much anyone wouldn't know and words can't express it. so, well.. after a long freakfucking 4 bloody years kan? he might have changed or maybe he doesn't changed at ALL. or maybe i should just ignored him like i've never knew him??? but i know the last options is absofuckinglutely a hard task to bear with. for some reason that i myself didn't know and i think would never know is how the hell did HE do that and have the guts to start seeing me again. but again, maybe he's losing control.

neway, tomorrow is actually my 24th Birthday!!!

p/s: awynn, Kahwin Part II is coming in a few days!!!

bukan... bukan... bukan aku nak kahwin la. lambat lagi. ada jodoh insya-allah. ada nasib cepatlah aku bersuami dan memegang status isteri. ada rezeki boleh jadi seorang ibu.

wah! imaginasi tinggi!

umur dah nak masuk suku abad tahun depan. tahun depan yang hanya tinggal kurang daripada 15 hari je lagik... suku abad dah aku hidup. bernafas. ingat lagi, dulu masa tadika. main plastesin sampai kuku aku semua kaler-kaler sampai aku sendiri geli nak makan pakai tangan. sekolah rendah jadik pengawas paling hobbit sekali. dah la hobbit, jaga budak darjah 6 yang sekor-sekor kalau hentak kepala aku sekali cukup untuk buat aku sebesar pen kilometrico dalam masa dua jam. sekolah menengah bila jadi senior yang low profile tapi penuh dengan idea-idea gila nak menghavockan kelas dan sekolah. pergh!! rasa cam tak percaya. tak tak. tak nak percaya sebenarnya. sebab banyak lagi benda dalam hidup nih yang aku nak buat dan aku nak capai yang belum sampai-sampai dan belum dapat-dapat. tertekan betul aku. tapi setakat nih aku masih waras. tak der la pulak harapan atau cita-cita nak ke wad psikiatri untuk merawat tekanan aku nih. bukan banyak pon tekanan. tapi antara tekanan yang paling aku tak dapat nak tahan bila orang tanya aku soalan bernilai 5 fillion..

" Nana, bila nak kahwin?? "

boleh tak kalau agak-agak aku bagi jawapan sarkastik macam..

"Esok, eh.. nana lupa kasi kad ye?? alah tak payah kad.. jemputlah ye." *sambil senyum dan gelak terkikik kikik kunun comel*

atau

"Tunggu Brad Pitt bercerai dengan Angelina Jolie"

atau

"Nana dah tukar orientasi seks - nak jadik Lesbian"

agak-agak reaksi orang-orang nih mesti terkejut unta. silap silap aku makan penampar free-free atau kene cubit sampai lebam. huhuhu :D

bukan apa tau, sebab aku terpikir, kalau kahwin sekalipon, kalau aku gembira alhamdulillah la. buat dapat suami mata basketball ke. tak hormat mak abah ke. pendek kata tak menepati syarat. tapi orang cakap, memilih sangat memang tak kahwin la kau! tapi kalau tak memilih macamana pulak? takkan nak main redah je. skang banyak sangat kes kahwin sekejap-sekejap nih. aku tak suka nak bercerai-berai nih. mintak simpang malaikat 44. bergegar tiang arasy.tuhan marah dowh!! lagipon, ingat murah ke nak buat jamuan berkali-kali? ingat tak letih ke??

ingat lagi bila orang cakap kat aku yang agaknya aku selalu sangat jadi pengapit, tu yang jodoh lambat kot. but hey hey.. aku sendiri belum terfikir soal tuh. lagipon aku baru nak masuk 25. bukan 52. dulu lainla.. 23 ko tak kawen orang dah boleh pandang serong.. sekarang kalau 32 tak kawen baru orang cam tertanya-tanya.

soal kahwin berumah tangga nih. bukan benda mudah. bukan untuk sehari dua, sebulan dua atau setahun dua. ini untuk selamanya. bukan senang bawak title DIVORCEE kan? semua orang pon tahu. so, dengan masalah yang sedia ada, aku takder hati atau niat nak tambah masalah lain plak. :D setakat jadi pengapit takkan aku kene sumpahan lambat kawen kot? kawan aku ramai suka menyanyi kat dapur. kawen orang muda plak. yang duduk bertenggek kat tangga pon ramai, kawen plak dia. cepat lagik. itu semua alasan orang-orang tua nak tegah biar jadik sopan sikit. orang kata hilang seri la apa laa... ok je aku tengok. takder ubah pandangan orang lain pon. seronok lagik la... dapat main mata ngan pengapit lelaki. dapat make-up secara pro. yang paling best, dapat makan meja beradap. udang, ketam semua beb... sedap tuh.. ayam golek.. perghh.... siakap la bawal la.... bukan selalu dapat duduk makan sebelah pengtin. aku bukan apa, amik berkat nak jadik pengantin. hahahahah :D

satu lagi, sebelum kahwin mesti ready nak ikat komitmen kat suami, dan paling penting pada rumahtangga. kene tahu kemas rumah, masak, gosok baju semua. alhamdulillah, dah training lama dah, lagipon anak sulung perempuan. semua aku boleh buat sendiri. tapi err... bang, seluar abang gosok sendiri ok. orang tak reti. :D semua aku dah boleh buat, cuma masih lagik aku takut perkataaan komitmen tu. dah la UNPREDICTABLE. so, susah nak tetapkan jawapan. hati aku nih berubah-berubah. silap hari bulan masa nak nikah aku soh tok kadi tuh tunggu jap sebab aku nak bermeditasi menenangkan fikiran sebelum aku tandatangan surat nikah tu. kalau lepas tuh tandatangan takper. buatnya aku tak tandatangan? apa nak jawab?

benda macam nih memang aku tak amik remeh. ini bukan kes duit atau penat, tapi soalmaruah. buatnya bakal suami akunaik minyak ke apa ke... hey, u'll never know kan??

so, kesimpulan nya...

AKU BELUM SEDIA NAK KAHWIN LA MAK!! RELAKSLA.... CHIIIIIIIIIIILL!!!

1.YOUR HOROSCOPE?
::CAPRICORN RULES!!!


2. SiNGLE OR TaKen?
::Young, single and and not searching!


3. iN LoVe?
:: not so sure


4. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN SERIOUSLY HURT BY THE PERSON YOU LOVED
:: yes… badly… *that asshole!!*


5. WHAT WOULD BE YOUR REASON iF YOU TURNED SUICIDAL?
:: huh??? If I’m too drunk yeah!!


6. iS SUiCiDE REALLY KiLLiNG YOURSELF?
:: no.. suicide is actually killing your cat! Dummy!


7. COUNTRY OR CLASSiC?
:: both


8. PREFER CUTE/iDiOT OR SMART/UGLY?
:: CUTE and SMART please…


9. ARE YOU iN A STABLE RELATiONSHiP WiTH YOUR BF/GF?
:: I’m single dude!!! Read before your ask!!


10. YOU`D EXPECT A TEXT MESSAGE USUALLY FROM:
:: my mates, my scandals, my buddies and my boss.


11. HAVE A BEST FRiEND THAT iS iN THE OPPOSiTE GENDER?
:: yup… too many!!


12. WHAT DO YOU LiKE DOiNG WHEN YOUR DEPRESSED
:: eat, smoke, sleep. Get high get stoned!!! Miahahahah :D


13.EVER WONDERED WHY NOBODY KNOWS WHY THE SKY iS BLUE?
:: no.. that’s absofuckinglutely stoopid things to wondered about!


16. EVER BEEN HURT BY LOVE?
:: ONCE. That’s it!!!


17. WiLL YOU EVER MAKE THE SAME MiSTAKE AGAiN?
:: is not my mistake la dude!!!


18. EVER HATED ANYONE LiKE HeLL???
:: yes. And they regret that.


19. WHAT WILL YOU DO WHEN A PERSON BREAKS UP WiTH YOU AFTER ONE DAY?
:: after one day??? I am no loser u see…


20. GiVE ONE WORD THAT BEST DESCRiBES WHAT YOU`RE FEELiNG NOw?
:: I feel okay…


21. DO YOU BELiEVE iN YOURSELF?
:: yes. Who wouldn’t?


22. EVER PHYSiCALLY HURT YOURSELF??
:: NO.. who would???


23. EVER VERBALLY HURT YOURSELF?
:: NO. what is this?? I am no LOSER again.. duh!!


24. MOTTO iN LiFE
:: LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST!!!


25.WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE IN LIFE?
:: Scary it is.. but I’m still not sure.


26. HAVE YOU EVER HAD FEELiNGS ABOUT A FRiEND FROM THE OPPOSiTE GENDER?
:: yup.


27. iF YES, WHAT DiD YOU DO?
:: nothing.


28. iS FAME & MONEY THE MOST iMPORTANT THiNGS iN YOUR LiFE?
:: defifuckingnetly yes!


29. DO YOU MAKE ANY MOVEMENTS OR SOUNDS WHEN YOU`RE SLEEPiNG?
:: why don’t u asked someone who’ve slept with me?


30. ARE YOU DiFFiCULT TO WAKE UP?
:: nope. If I had prior appointment. But if its weekends..sorry. I won’t be up until at least 3 p.m.


31. HOW OFTEN DO YOU SLEEP?
:: everyday la dude.. how long I supposed eh?? 6 hours.

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

counting days to new year. my birthday too. i'm OFFICIALLY 24 on Dec 30. but then again, i'm 25 on jan 1st. sis dona lagik kesian. langsung takder gap. hari nih 17, esok 18. heheheh :D rasa muda kan??. :D she was born on 31st Dec. but hey, being born at end of year somehow makes me feel good. Bonuses everyone!!! yippiee!!!

been doing good at home since i went back to sentul to see my mom's bruises after her camera-masuk-dalam-urat treatment last monday at IJN. damn man!! teruk gila. i almost fainted to see the bruises. seems likes she was knocked down by a trailer. teruk gila. dia kata dah tak sakit. just the muscle pain a lil bit here and there. she's good. she's doin' good. and that's good too. my flu and cough?? still on, after three bloody weeks!

i am back at my office. feeling as usual, sleepy as there is nothing to do. clock in at 8.30 a.m. started to finish or clear my work out. by 11.00 a.m i'm all good and got nothing to do anymore. just waited for calls or any assignments by my bosses. busy downloading songs. and yes, you're right.. chatting. editing pictures. reading e-mails. and then, that's it. when i got nothing else to do. i felt bored to death! esok nak bawak thesaurus laa... baca. :D

linda my housemate is getting married next year JUNE. maybe! Nadia wanted to get married as soon as possible with NO-ONE-In-MIND. Ena is about to get enganged next year. me?? i'm still here. i'm not going anywhere. i'm cool. don't worry about me. i'll be good!!

i wanna/hafto watch all these movies.. Harry Potter, The Fog, Narnia, Puntianak Harum Sundal Malam 2, what else?? all the latest movie la. King Kong also. Just like Heaven. nak tgk movie ke nak beli dvd??? ermm....

i have to admit.. i love making friends.. and be nice to my friends.. and yes, as i've post earlier.. i won't be supernice to every single of them unless i know they're worth it. thru thick and thin...

all for one.. and one for all...

and i'm outta here!!!! before that.. i love this song.. kinda get stuck with it.. since JIWA KACAU lately.. aku dok nyanyi lagu nih je.. from the Soundtrack of THE SOUND OF MUSIC... presenting to you...

MY FAVOURITES THINGS

Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens
Bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens
Brown paper packages tied up with strings
These are a few of my favorite things

Cream colored ponies and crisp apple streudels
Doorbells and sleigh bells and schnitzel with noodles
Wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings
These are a few of my favorite things

Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes
Snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes
Silver white winters that melt into springs
These are a few of my favorite things

When the dog bites
When the bee stings
When I'm feeling sad
I simply remember my favorite things
And then I don't feel so bad

wot happen last week mate??? well... nothing much... trouble+calamity+distress+misfortune+tribulation mix all these terms up and they easily get me demented the whole week. yup!! whole fucking week. it's a chaos. my nerves brokedown. i lost my insanity for like a few hours and almost i lost my grip. i lost my sense of thinking by using my brains not my arse. and i almost lost everything. almost. plus.. me, being not-comfortable-telling-people-about-my-own-problems-girl and i can't just let out the exact feelings to another homo-sapiens on earth... i keep it to my my own. i bring it to my grave. at certain stage.. i think i'm digging at one now. hell yeah .. i think i am. but heck.. who would even care.

i thought being nice to people is good. and eventually people will also be nice at you. now that i've learned. right.. for almost 24 years and only now that i know that being nice is not enuff. u have to be nice+blunt+sarcastics+firm+friendly+selfish because if u don't. they will be out of control. i have my own limits on patience. and i think i just lose it to someone i loved dearly. who i always cared about. who i always see as my family. but now, i see her as just an ordinary girl i met on the street. she's no longer in my top list. the list that i put on my special people i loved and cared the most. sad huh? but hey, afterall this shit i've been listening from others about her bitching about me at my back, and know that i heard it on my own. with my own ears. i think i had enuff of this bitch!!!

being a good friend and a love counselor to a few friends that i loved, has make me a lil bit wiser and somehow, the other day, a thought strikes thru me... WHERE ARE THEY? them that i reckon as a FRIENDS??? when you need them, when u could really use her/his shoulder to cry on. they weren't there for me. well... that's when i remembered what my true friend always remind me...

"u know what NANA, makes friends to all the new people u know. its good. making friends is simply fun!!!total fun!!! but don't ever trust them. unless u know them well thru tick and thin of your life. and they are always there by yourside no matter what."

i thot to myself, this is it.. i ain't gonna be super nice anymore. tho i like being like one. but i'm trying to be as cool as i can be. as i can be. yeah.. maybe i'm the reasons of all the shits and bullocks that happend to me. maybe it's my mistake.. maybe... maybe not?? well... who cares?? i don't... not anymore..

and i was given an advices, more to brainwash from a 45 years old man. he's an ol' friend of mine. maybe he's not the one that i should burst out all my feeling and all my problems at that point. but all i want is to get the hell outta this mess. i ain't gonna survived like i did earlier if i had this problem strikes back at me again. he kept my feet on the ground. giving all the "Be cool girl.. it's not the end of the world" thingy.. and yes.. i was about to think that he's doing it for the sake that he likes me. and yes he told me that. but please.. we.. me and you can't be together. i didn't feel it at all. that... i don't know why...

but geezz... he did makes me feel better... he pushed me to enjoyed the night. tho actually i hated it for some reason. and now.. that i am back on the ground. on my feet. and i'm willing to do almost anything legal to get my arse outta this hell...geeezz..

i gotta hit my bunk now. fucking sleepy.

lemme see... on friday tuh, woke up not too early, went to the bank and opened a new *another* account as the new company insisted on me having a Public Bank Account for my salary. so, buat la... it took me about 30 minutes gak la baru siap. then straight to the office and wallaa.. toothache tahap gaban melanda. sakit lain macam. tak reda pulak even dah telan painkiller sebijik! vavik sungguh!!  

after that, went straight back to Sentul where i and ena had dinner at Pak Tam's. chatted for a few hours and balik umah. online and yeah, nothing much. not interested to have a chat pon since i'm freaking tired and sleepy at the mo'. but i didn't turn off the pc, just biar dia on and i watched astro untill about 6 a.m baru tertidor. dengan PC yang tak off!

woke up at almost 3 pm on saturday dan start pk nak pakai baju apa for KL TAers Meet n Greet party at Rum Jungle. keluar rumah at almost 8.15 pm but since Sentul and Rum Jungle isn't that far, i got my arses there at almost 9 pm. with no sight of kak Dona and siblings, dengan penuh keberanian berjumpa dengan other TAers. so, there we go!! Remmy, Sn0brin4, Im, mak Oya, Azhari, Ayeen, dan ramai lagik yang sorry la! den tak ingat nama! Desmund, one of Remmy's friend came along. and this guy couldn't stop calling me a liar!! Remmy kata dia problem child. later on dah kenal2 and sessi photoshoot with all the celebrities and yes, sedikit lagu yang tak berapa hip dan happening kecuali lagu La Bamba that makes us all on out feet and dance like a freak. just for a while la.. then bila semua dah Log Out, the Don's head up to Doraisamy to jumpa other kawan2 kat sana. left me, with Sn0b and her boo andrew.. and these two gays Remmy and Desmund *hahahahaha :D they're not gays laa.. saja je kacau!!*. we headed up to Hard Rock Cafe while Desmund praying that they'll have songs such as Isabella, Taman Rashidah Utama and Sejati there that nite. Desmund is CRAZY la!! on the rock, plus a pitcher and a screaming orgasm with body shot is enuff to make me go dizzy! better yet, end up kat bilik orang!! hahahahahaha :D met Effie, Nadia, Ja, Salleh, Aizal, Rosma and Nazim at Hard Rock. secara coincidence. setelah beberapa lama di sana dan rasa macam nak jatuh.. get out from HRC and yes.... the next thing is TIDO!!! so much for party animal huh!!!

breakfast at Concorde - light breakfast since badan sakit2. balik umah and mandi all. get out wif ena trying to find the present for our x-classmate who got married last Friday and the reception is yesterday. bought tempurung windchain for the pengantin. later on, balik umah ena and get ready. the weather is so hot. so freaking hot. but the nasik minyak was good. makan banyak sebab more like lapar and panas and penat. after picture session *again.. isn't life is fabulous!!* balik to ena's place and we end up sleeping while talking. no.. not sleep talking. talking then sleep!! hahah :D woke up at almost 7.30 and balik umah balik where i found my Aunt and my Cousin were at home wif my mom. kemas barang a bit. chatted on the Ym a bit. makan a lot. laughing a lot. talk somemore. responsing to TA a few. kidnapped a few things. mandi a while. watched Tiga abdul on TV2 and shoot to my Apartment. i shut down the whole programme yesterday at almost 1 am. along with a lil bit more of HO, backache and headache.

today, normal thing. normal stuff. usual shit. only with awesome memories to smile at!

i finally thought my lil baby sister how to chat wif me on YM. she is now an amatur chatters. chit chatting wif her made me smile the whole morning as she woke up early just to chat wif me. but until 10 a.m jer sebab nak tengok cartoon!! darn!! :D

where do i get that much in so lil time?? herm... pening pala dah nih... i need.. i need.. oxygen. and i need time. i need those. badly!!!

:D

i'm off now!!

sakit gigi!!!! cisss... tak tertahan-tahan rasanya sakit gigi nih... hantu betul!!! selalu sekejap je.. kali nih teruk plak.. gigi bongsu atas nak keluar!! bingai..bingai... migrain aku!!migrain!!!!

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itu iklan je! well, i'll be back at my parent's tonite. tho' they're all wouldn't be there sebab follow my mom to Templer Park for she has a course to teach there. since she got a big and nice apartment to stay with a pool ... my sister as usual la... will go and ikut her there. so as my dad. left me alone in the house wif that crazy bitch. dem!!! well, never mind... as long as i can use the net all time.. i'll be much more happier then!! huhuhu :D yup yup... i'm an internet freak.. i am!!

adehhh.. gigi sakit...

hilang idea nak apdet..

i'm out!