aku keluar paper. ye ye.. lambat. semua gejuis yang pi gath dah baca, aku bila sampai sentul baru nak cari Ikon (6 Januari 2006) terkial-kial baca. tapi gambar aku kecik comel sangat. kau letak taik hidung nobita lebih besar taik hidung nobita dari gambar aku. hahahah :D yang nampak susuk tubuh. yang jelas, jeans dan baju belang banduan aku tuh. muka jangan cakap. tapi syok. ye la, aku bukan menang awards pon. takkan nak letak gambar aku besar-besar plak kan??

listing props untuk Projek Gediks V1 dah dalam pembikinan. aku gila deviantart.com skang nih. gila edit gambar juga. gila posing depan camera sejak lahir lagi dah kene. cuma aku perasan satu benda, aku posing kene senyum. kalau tak senyum, rasa cam gambar cacat. maka kawan aku cakap, aku sesuai untuk iklan riang ria.

oh, Projek Gediks nih actually, projek gedik depan camera bersama rakan-rakan gediks. bila setel balik umah download dan edit gambar. then upload dan tunggu komen. hahahah :D kerja gila dan gediks. 

tungu siap je Projek Gediks V1.. nanti aku blow horn kasi bilang satu malaya kay!!!

ayam masak merah. kuah lontong. kuah kacang. sambal tumis. nasi impit. air oren. semuanya menerjah masuk ke perut setiap 4 jam sekali. bangun pagi, bukak mata je masuk. tengok tv sebelum tidur masuk lagi. dah bangun masuk lagik. lepas nih jap jap lagik masuk lagi. bercampur aduk.. air oren tuh yang makin tak leh nak tolak tu. dengan cuaca panas panas tidak. dan dengan cerita yang erm... boleh la nak tengok pon. pendek kata, makan, tidur, tengok tv. itu aja pengisian masa cuti raya haji.

semalam, dalam perjalanan dari KOmuter Sentul ke rumah, berhenti kat traffic light kat depan stesyen minyak Esso kat Sentul. ada dalam hampir 6 ekor lembu berjalan dengan penuh anggun masuk kawasan stesyen minyak. gemuk-gemuk belaka. kata aku dalam hati.

"korang nak isi minyak nak lari jauh-jauh ke? maklumlah, esok kau nak kene sembelih. mesti kau takut tu sebab kau pakat isi minyak so, boleh lari jauh-jauhkan?"

pastu aku teringat, dia nak isi minyak kat mana??takkan nak minum? mati la. dia tak reti drive. huh!! pelepek aku tampar dahi dan aku pegang perut. ooohh.. dah berbunyi. ini sindrom lapar nih. miahahahahaha :D (aku kalau lapar memang aku meraban) 

raya lagik...

tapi esok tak raya meriah mana la.. sebab as usual kalo raya haji atau raya korban, abah busy sembelih lembu. tahun nih nak pi usha line la.. nak tengok orang sembelih. tapi kalau tak busy dan tak rasa malas. lepas nih terus balik sentul. mak mana ada pembantu lain selain dari aku. pembantu teragung di rumah. aku la potong serai aku la potong halia aku la potong lengkuas, aku la tumbuk kacang sampai nak beli barang pon aku gak yang kene pi kedai. semua kata aku je yang buat. lagik adik jantan aku takde. takder sapa nak tolong. tapi kalau dia ada pon cam la dia tolong  pon. tolong tengok ada la! kata pon anak dara. anak sulung pulak. nak tak nak ni la masa nak training masak makanan rutin acara setahun sekali. dan seperti biasa kalau sedap menjilat jari kaki, yang dapat nama mak aku la. miahahaha :D kalau tak sedap nama aku gak yang naik. aku salah itu la, salah ini la. nasib badan...

selamat raya la semua orang.

basah. sejuk. berangin. kilat. guruh. payung. air.

balik rumah dalam kebasahan. skirt aku sampai ke atas lutut lencun.

sejuk bukan main. masuk rumah menggigil-gigil.

angin macam ribot topan. bunyi seram plak.

kilat macam lampu flash kamera. senyum..senyum.. tuhan tengah amik gambar kita. *kene panah kilat tuh baru padan muka*

guruh bersahut-sahut. cam satu pesta pulak.

payung biru giordano aku betul-betul banyak berjasa. saaaaaaayang dia!!!

air yang mengalir depan apartment aku cam air sungai. habis kasut aku masuk air. basah lagik.

tadi aku baca blog jigo. pasal kahwin. pasal suami. pasal hidup lepas kahwin dan banyak lagik. sebelum tuh, kawan lama aku masa sekolah rendah mesej aku cakap Apek dah kawen. kawan kitorang dulu. sekelas. lepas tuh dia tambah, Kohar pon nak kawin bulan 8 nih insya-allah. housemate aku nak bertunang 30 haribulan nih. bulan 6 insya-allah kawin. sapa ke lagi? sepupu aku yang kawin tahun lepas isterinya dah mengandung. Ena pon dah nak bertunang insa-allah hujung tahun nih.

akibatnya, aku jadik tak sabar nak kawin walaupun aku tak tahu nak kawin ngan sapa dan aku tak sure sama ada aku boleh kawin atau tak dalam masa terdekat. sebab aku tak ready.

tapi aku tensi bila semua orang nak kawin..

oit oit!!! aku pon nak kawen gak la gini...

Nana has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people. 

Nana is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

In reference to Nana's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Nana slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project. She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Nana can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip

Nana is secretive. She has secrets which she does not wish to share with others. She intentionally conceals things about herself. She has a private side that she intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in her past.

Nana will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Nana believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.

Nana is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes. Nana will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Nana an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other. When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Nana is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story. Nana is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially.  According to the data input, Nana doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

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oh hell yeah i do!!! u see... semua tepat siut.. semua memang betul kene dengan aku... semua benar. dan aah... dapat dari Hadwriting Wizard somewhere in the net. nak try?? googles sendiri la. malas nak carikkan.

tokei kedai mamak mesti garuk kepala. kalau teh tarik orang dah banned. nescafe banyak kafein pon tak banyak permintaan. milo mahal. horlicks tak ramai peminat. TEH O ke??? ahahahahah :D balik minum air sirap limau la. limau ais pon sedap. haa... lepas nih mesti penanam pokok limau kasturi kaya sey. apa lagik, jom ramai-ramai tanam pokok limau. mak aku kata, kalaunak buat teh o taruk limau, pakai limau kasturi. tapi kalau nak buat ais limau, pakai limau nipis. lebih kick. aku pakai je mana-mana tapi bukan limau mandarin!

mana nak best makan roti canai dengan teh o? mesti nak layan dengan teh tarik. susu cap teko kene buat satu produk susu berkrim rendah lemak. tapi kalau susu, rendah lemak. apa nama susu itu?? nak pakai susu gantung tak boleh beb, habis semua bayi-bayi kekurangan zat. orang dewasa plak makin sihat. tapi memang dari dulu aku tak reti nak buat TEH TARIK dan tak berapa suka minum TEH TARIK. sebab ada susu. tu sebabnya ada yang kata aset-aset aku semua tak mengancam sebab aku kurang minum susu. fak la. mana ada macam tuh. dah aset-aset aku semua comel cam aku, takkan aku nak pi paksa dia terover saiz. kecik salah, besar salah. kempis salah, mantap pon salah. hish...

tapi sekuat mana pon berita atau artikel nih tersebar dikalangan hantu-hantu teh tarik seluruh alam, percayalah, meraka takkan berhenti minum teh tarik. tapi kurang la sikit KOT. KOT NYA. cuba kau keluarkan fakta, teh tarik boleh menyebabkan mati pucuk seawal 30 tahun.. ha... masa tuh aku rasa ramai yang tak minum teh tarik. hahahahaha :D

antara fakta yang best dan menakutkan meskipun ia tak betul

merokok menyebabkan anda bodoh serta-merta

menonton filem lucah menyebabkan anda buta serta merta

mengumpat menyebabkan mulut anda berkulat

membuat maksiat di khayalak umum menyebabkan anda di panah petir

membuat bising dan berlagak bagus membuatkan anda terkene sihir menjadi GAGAP dan BISU

memaki team bola lawan menyebabkan team anda kalah teruk

fakta bingai yang aku suka

membayar cukai kepada kerajaan menyebabkan MAS membeli lukisan 1.6 juta

memakai lencana anti rasuah menyebabkan anda menerima pujian, sebaik sahaja ditanggalkan anda boleh terima rasuah semula

berbaik dengan menteri air mata menyebabkan anda menerima AP dengan mudah

berkahwin dengan orang kaya menyebabkan anda menerima hantaran sejumlah RM77,888 *orang kaya tak pernah tengok Bersamamu di TV3*

berkahwin grand-grand dan satu malaysia kepoh menyebabkan anda kini tinggal berasingan setelah dua tahun bersama

terlalu bongkak menjadi pemainbola menyebabkan anda maki penonton *hakikatnya kau dah tak reti nak main bola*

terlalu taksub dengan mawi menyebabkan anda yang pakai tudung labuh pon sanggup balik 3-4 pagi semata-mata nak tengok dia menyanyi.

terlalu taksub dengan mawi *lagi* menyebabkan anda kehilangan taste dalam menilai suara bermutu dengan suara berkutu

dah dah... boleh masuk ISA aku nih..

bangun awal. kol 10. kira awal la tu. bangun siap-siap terus nak ke Putrajaya. Janji berjumpa di Ampang Point dengan seorang dua gejuis lain. naik kete sorang mat rock geju ke putrajaya. singgah di bandar tasik selatan untuk amik sorang lagi awek geju. singgah ke Alamanda dan nikmat sundae McTwist masih terasa. sampai di Precint 8, dah ada dua tiga kelibat ahli geju yang sibuk berlatih untuk jadik dj dan mc dan yang nak setelkan hal hadiah dan pendaftaran. bukan senang nak jadi mc. konfiden dan suara kene dijaga. mula seawal 3 petang walaupun dekat 45 minit jugak delay program. pembukaan yang bagus oleh kedua MC. memang boleh dibanggakan. secara keseluruhan, perjalanan majlis amat stabil. bagus. maybe sebab aku tak tumpukan perhatian sangat. sebab sibuk jumpa orang dan sibuk main bola cop-cop dengan memel anak spy. dan ekceli sebab aku agak kecewa dengan makanan yang PADA PANDANGAN AKU tak la berbaloi dengan jumlah bayaran. tahun depan boleh improve ok! penting gathering nih, kalau aturcara tip top macamana pon, makanan kau tak memuaskan. orang boleh jadik bingit. hahahah :D nasib baik aku tak kisah sangat sebab aku tak lapar nak mati. tapi kalau aku lapar nak mati, begitu punya makanan aku dijamu. mau terbalik meja. hahahaha :D ok.. ok.. aku ekzejeret story nih. acara yang aku suka adalah unplugged session oleh ND dan Ap. wa cakap lu, aku dah macam tak sedau diri pon ada. sebabnya seronok sangat. pilihan lagu menarik. so, happening. masa tuh memang best. masa tuh dengan masa amik gambar. syabas buat para AJK. segala kekurangan tuh boleh diperbaiki untuk masa akan datang. bila di tegur jangan melenting nak XXXXX orang beb. adat la.. bukan korang je yang pernah buat gathering. aku pernah buat gathering untuk berkali-kali juga. semua yang tak puas hati, aku terima komen mereka dengan hati yang terbuka walaupun hanya tuhan je yang tahu berapa bakul aku maki balik mereka-mereka ini. so, kalau aku di maki berbakul-bakul sekalipon aku tak kisah. hahahaha :D tapi aku cukup suka cenderahati yangberupa keychain dan buku nota comel tuh. nanti aku nak cakap keychain tuh keychain kereta. Jenama Gengjurnal. miaaaaaaaaaaaahahaha :D

tahun baru nih mungkin cara penulisan agak berbeza. dah tak tumpu sangat pada aku. pada orang lain aku rasa. pada benda lain. pada kejadian lain. asyik-asyik cerita pasal aku je kan? kali nih aku buat sedikit renovasi. cerita pasal benda lain. pasal kau ke? pasal dia ke? pasal aku mestila ada. blog aku kan? bukan blog ayah jiran aku punya kambing angkat. cuma mungkin bahasanya aku kekalkan. segala perkataan sumbang akan tetap keluar cuma akan sedikit disensorkan. dwibahasa akan tetap ada. kalau aku belajar jawa dengan lebih mendalam jadik tribahasa. tambah bahasa binatang nanti fourbahasa. pendek kata. berbahasa-bahasa. pendek kata lagi, ikut cara lama aku menulis, cuma subjeknya akan lebih bervariasi. tak tertumpu pada aku. MY LIFE tukar kepada EVERYBODY'S LIFE.. kan?? itu pendek kata. panjang tak kata apa-apa. nanti kalau si panjang berkata-kata mau makan tiga hari pat belas malam aku menaip!!

tahun nih takder resolution. takder azam baru. eh.. ada.. nak habiskan azam aku 24 tahun yang lepas. hehehe :D tinggal beberapa je lagik. kira kata dah setel semua azam-azam tuh, dan aku akan minum air zam zam sambil berazam baru. zam zam allakazam.

tahun nih satu je cita-cita aku. nak kawin.

i woke up felt like i was hit by an Airbus. headache, backache.. ok ok.. ALL OVER ACHE to be precise. and my room is spinning around. i felt like a moron. then it was hot, a minutes after it was cold. hot cold hot and cold. then i reached out to my phone. it's 7.30 am and i couldnt even lift my legs?? dammeit!!! what's happening here?? owhh.. ok... i was attacked by a high fever. damn those fever viruses and yes... padan muka la because of my intelligency and stoneheaded habit, i remembered then last night i was a bit damp due to raining on the way back home. and i only took my bath at almost 10.00 pm with cold water. great. just nice!!!! still, with my phone in my hand i read all the b'day messages.. owh, it's my birthday today.. what a great birthday morning. great!!! those smses came from zura, my mom, aris and a few other freinds who remembered my birthday as i remember theirs. luv u guys!!! so, next is, smsed my boss - Jason telling him that i'm not well and wouldn't be able to work that day. tried very freaking hard to get up and chow down 2 Panadols with a 100 Plus. Jason reply my msg and wished me to get well soon and DO NOT CELEBRATE NU YEAR IN FEVER.. hahahah a:D funny huh!!

then, i doozed off for almost three hours and i woke up just to fill up my empty stomach with some scramble eggs. called my mom who is on the way back to KL from kampung. asked her to fetched me terus shoot balik KL. back at home, i felt better, then we went out to have dinner. my mom's treat as it is my birthday. hehehe. balik tuh, beli pizza lagik. makan banyak cam babi betul!! hahahah :D

my handphone went kaput. flip tuh, if i closed it. then when, i opened the flipper, phone terus off! went kaput at this time is not good man!! not good!! then, i went off to bed.. EARLY.... damn early!!! thanks to the medicine...

31 December 2005

happy birthday sis Dona.

woke up at almost 2 pm. no. no new year celebration. nothing in mind. my body is weak. nothing. so, plan untuk sambut nu year dan birthday secara beriman telah makbul!! ahahahahah :D went off to bed early too. shit!! thanks to all my mother cooking. i went to bed with full stomach.

another two hours to my 24th birthday! and also another 6 hours and 46 minutes, i was born 24 years ago at General Hospital Kuala Lumpur. yeah!! i am proud to be a KL girl! but here i am. alone. at my room. writing this down while listening to the radio. getting ready to sleep i guess. nope, no celebration. to tell u the truth, i am not feeling well. i could just go and have a party but since i don't want to make things worst, i just sit down and tight at my room. there is a few plans to celebrate my brithday secara kurang beriman but i pushed it away. i don't know.. but i just feel like i dont want anymore party this time around. don't. don't ever asked me why.. even i know it was gonna be a lavish, superb, and sponsored party. yup! you read it right. sponsored! i ain't gonna spent a single cent on it and yet, i don't know why did i say no to it. maybe the number is getting bigger and yeah, something or someone had said or did something to me. but i don't know!! hahaha!!

i guess what i need is my own space, my own time. just to sit and relax and think about what i've gone through for the past 24 years. thankful and yes, blessed. tho' i've been thru hell and so on. but yet, i'm still here. standing with my two feet. feeling good about everything that happend to me tho' it is not good at all and it sucks. i did so many things. the one that i like and the one that i don't like. i have a lots of precious sweet memories and also the unlike feel like shit thingy. but all this, somehow, yes.. somehow, those things actually thought me about life. about how life's work. what is it actually about? the ups and downs? what's real and what's not? making friends, fall in love, break off, feel wasted, stupidity , careless, selfish and stuff. these things actually make me stronger. day by day. all the love and the hateness, the pro's and con's. positives and negatives. u know, those stuff YING and YANG. yeah, i'm so thankful for all that i had, i'd gone through, and here i am, still alive and kicking. but all aside, these people, all of them, have made me a better person in my life. whether they knew about it.. or NOT.

my mom - my heart, my air, who will always be there when i need her. she spoilt me. to the max!! she did!!i love her very much that one cannot ever express it in words.

my dad - my life and my guide. he didn't talk that much, but once he open his mouth, i could spend the whole day crying feeling like a moron.

my sister - my happiness and my joy. tho' she's freaking lazy and so heavy and she always annoys me and make me angry. but somehome, all my problem will just fucked off when she started to tell me her stupid jokes and quizzes.amazing kan?

my brother - we didnt talk that much but we knows everything and so do i. we somehow .. maybe in our sleeptalking has made a vow that whatever happen, we will stick together!!

my ONLY bestfriend - ENA. or her fullname, AZLINA HASSAN. she will always be there for me, spiritually, physically and yes, financially. haha :D she would never say no whenever i asked for her shoulder to cry on or her ears to burst out my feeling! one hell of friend she is!!

my arwan WAN - my late grandmother. my lovely lovely lovely late grandmother. tho' she passed away almost 8 years ago, i can still feel her besides me

all them, all them... all... i could only pray for their healthy, safety, prosperity and wellness ... that's all i could do in return. The rest is up to HIM.

and to HIM, for giving me all the chances to stay this long. Giving me all that i asked for. well, more or less. how lucky i am?? owh, believe me, u wouldn't want to know!!

to the Devils/Satans/Demons or whatever bad things.. well, fuck you!!! hahahah :D you lead me to the wrong way sometimes but eat your heart out losers, i always find my way back to home. SAFELY!! touchwood!!

be gone to all bad memories. what past is past. it can't be undone. we can't reverse the time and not even a Superman or Doraemon could do it.

my mind language, my French and my foul wordsssss. sorry for any troubles that i had coused as long as we known each other. for those people who are sometimes brave enough to get to their nerves saying shit and things to me thru this blog. i thanks you all. imagine what would life be without you losers?? dull ain't it???